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Monday, August 25, 2008

Its a WRAP--up ;)





I'm a dork. Yes, I admit it :)

Work:

It has to be said that I love my job. I love the people I work with. I love my guests. I even love the lady that took my housekeeping manager position (because even though she has a ton more experience, I now know I would have never cut it back there!).

The "kiddos" I work with (ages 19-21) are awesome and we have fun when we work. I am around these guys more than my own family mostly because a "hotel never closes" and we have become close. This part is not so much a wrap up, but oh well. :)


Home:

My adorable husband is shingle free!!! He is feeling so much better and I couldn't be happier. People who say that marriage gets better year after year really knew what they were talking about. I love him more than I did when I married him ( and I loved him a LOT then! :) He just gets funnier, sweeter, and more amazing...okay cheesy moment over.


Body Transformation:

I have lost 20 pounds!!! And about 6 inches from my waist...HOLY HELL! I fit into a size smaller (sometimes 2 sizes smaller, depends on the brand!) and I feel a ton better. Travis is even noticing and he is not one to take notice on this sort of stuff. He joked the other day that "he thought I was hot before, but damn, I better stop or I am not going to be let out of the house!" haha. Hes a dork too ;)

I can officially run a mile too! I have worked hard towards this and I can last at a jog for 1 mile. I used to run about 6 miles a days for soccer, but had not done that in a long time, so this is a big accomplishment!

Travis is also going to get my parents BRAND NEW elliptical machine from their house because my mom uses it as a clothes hanger more than anything and they are never home anyway (travel a ton!). This is like a $2000 piece of equipment...YAY! Its going in the "nursery" until we have a good "excuse" to move it out. :)

Family:

I went to my 4 year old nephew's first t ball game last Wednesday. He is VERY good at hitting the ball! They throw it to them 3 times first, and then they get to hit it off the tee until they hit it. My nephew doesn't even need the tee! I am super proud of him. Buuuttt....I have to laugh when I type this, but he is so stinking funny in the outfield. He either sits down and picks grass, turns the other way from the ball, or walks off the field to his mommy. I was cracking up! My sister just made his turn back around and his coach held his shirt most of the time so he wouldn't sit down :) Hes only 4, and we are pretty sure hes just bored out there.

In other family news, pretty much my whole stinking family is going to Holiday World this next weekend! YAY! Holiday World is a amusment park to those who don't know, and I've never been there, but hear its a lot of fun. My sister and my niece Makayla (9) are coming in from Nashville, my other sister and BIL with Bailey (20 months) and Hayden (4) are coming, and the twins I used to nanny for ( we love them like our own) and me and Travis. Thats a lot of people to keep track of but it will be tons of fun!

Okay...long post, but I felt the need to wrap up for my own sake...told you I was a dork ;)

BTW...the kids above are the ones we are going with...my loves of my life!

Thursday, August 14, 2008

I feel like its my fault

My amazing, loving, honest, never hurt a fly husband has shingles. Yep...shingles. He started with a rash on his face that we both thought came from shaving. This "rash" started to spread to his hair line and neck, and behind his ears and he started getting these horrible shooting pains up through his face. That was enough "bravery" for me...he had to go to the doc, which he put up a fight for, but he finally relented and went.

Shingles is basically chicken pox for adults. Adults who have had chicken pox keep it dormant in their system, until the "lucky" few get shingles. Shingles is brought on in mostly older people, that are sick, tired, or namely, stressed. My husband is the stressed one....and its all my fault! His doctor even said he was so surprised to see it in a patient so young (29). I feel so bad for him.

Ever since my 2nd m/c, Travis has been taking things harder. He gets upset to see me upset, he feels like he let me down because he wasn't able to protect me, and he has been throwing himself into work and school, just trying to keep his mind off of it. Since then, he has been under tremendous amounts of stress.

Now this is not a woe is me sort of post. I am seriously worried about him. I really feel like if my silly body would just cooperate with my pregnancies, then we wouldn't be in this situation. Travis would be a doting dad right now instead of in intense pain that makes him clinch his jaws in mid-sentence. This sucks that I added to his stress, and may have even caused it. But, I am able to understand that there are tons of things in life that I cannot control, and this is one of them.

The problem is...call it the Catholic in me...is that I have such extreme guilt that I "caused" this, that I am waiting on him hand and foot, constantly apologizing to him and asking him if he is okay. He loves it, but deep down I know I am starting to annoy him.

Well, anyway, this is more a vent...I just need to get over myself ;)



“I'm an Irish Catholic and I have a long iceberg of guilt”


~Edna O'Brien

Thursday, August 7, 2008

found this gem...brings me much peace.

I still have my days. I cry myself to sleep. I try to be strong. I cannot be strong all the time. This past weekend was the wedding. Some of Travis' friends have adorable babies and cute kids. This was a recipe for disaster. We were supposed to have a 2 month old by now. We were also supposed to be announcing our pregnancy to our friends and families at the wedding. Instead, Travis bombs his best man speech because its right after his best friend dance with his 8 year old to "Stealing Cinderella" and we promptly say our good byes after the cake cutting. We had a night of hugging and hoping, crying and sharing. I just wish we could do all that with a baby in my belly or better yet in my arms. This is pretty hard.



Glory baby you slipped away as fast as we could say baby…baby..
You were growing, what happened dear?
You disappeared on us baby…baby..
Heaven will hold you before we do
Heaven will keep you safe until we’re home with you…
Until we’re home with you…

Miss you everyday
Miss you in every way
But we know there’s a
day when we will hold you
We will hold you
You’ll kiss our tears away
When we’re home to stay
Can’t wait for the day when we will see you
We will see you
But baby let sweet Jesus hold you
‘till mom and dad can hold you…
You’ll just have heaven before we do
You’ll just have heaven before we do

Sweet little babies, it’s hard to
understand it ‘cause we’re hurting
We are hurting
But there is healing
And we know we’re stronger people through the growing
And in knowing-
That all things work together for our good
And God works His purposes just like He said He would…
Just like He said He would…

BRIDGE:
I can’t imagine heaven’s lullabies
and what they must sound like
But I will rest in knowing, heaven is your home
And it’s all you’ll ever know…all you’ll ever know…

Friday, August 1, 2008

Its a Wedding Weekend!

My husband's best friend is getting married this weekend! Travis will be the best man and I cannot wait to see him look adorable in his tux, even though he will be grumbling the whole day about how uncomfortable it is. He is more a basketball shorts and t-shirt guy.

I am really looking forward to this weekend. For one, I LOVE weddings. They are such fun and happy days. Two, I love my husband's friends. They are cool people and we don't get out much. Third, I have been working out super hard and the dress I bought for the event look smoking on me (if I shall say so myself ;)

There is one reason I am not looking forward to this wedding. My lovely husband and the bride don't get along so well. Every time they see each other, its like a verbal sparring match on who can get the best sarcastic line off on each other. DH usually gets upset because he thinks shes a "bitch"...his best friend gets upset because he doesn't want them to "fight" (if thats what you call it) I just get annoyed because its like a battle of who has the bigger balls. I mean seriously, what woman fights with a man for fun like that when they are trying to be malicious. I guess I am what you would call a "lady", but she seriously takes things waaaaaay too far and is always like this. Also, my husband is sooo at fault too, because he doesn't like to "lose", which he doesn't understand that he is losing when he just doesn't ingore her. Its annoying, I can't find a better word to explain it. I am still looking forward to the wedding though. I figure they will both be on their best behavior there ;)

On a side note...I took my doggie walk/running last night and hes limping this morning. He is 7 and a lab so he is prone to arthritis in the hip. This is the first time we have run (yay! I havent done this in years!). but the poor thing is paying for it today :( I guess I will be taking my 2 year old lab on any running escapades from now on ;)

Have a great weekend!!!



If you can imagine it, you can achieve it; if you can dream it, you can become it.
William Arthur Ward

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