Houston...

We have a positive! I am over the moon excited!

I started spotting on Saturday night, and after I spent a good 15 minutes crying in the bathroom at work feeling sorry for myself that AF was going to show her face, I got over myself. Well, then the spotting went away, and I still wasn't convinced but whatever. So I got woken up by Travis Sunday morning asking me if I was still going to test. I didn't want to but thought of a good idea. I decided I would pee, leave the test in the bathroom, and have Travis take a gander at it. Either way it came out, I thought I could take the news better from him.

So, I pee...and go out on the couch. Travis continues to eat his cereal, and every freaking bite I am growing more and more anxious and agitated. I asked him about 50 times if he was done yet, and finally he put his bowl up in the sink. Then he proceeds to let the dogs outside and inside!!! I was freaking at this point, almost begging him to go inside the bathroom. He laughs, and heads down the hall.

He gets inside and doesn't say a word. He tells me to stay on the couch. He calls our dogs into the office and I am kind of preparing myself for a letdown. He uses our labs to make me feel better sometimes and so I figured that's what he was doing. Eventually he calls out to me..."If Cash comes out, its positive, if Zeus comes out, its negative" Well, I knew right then and there that it was positive because Cash is crazy and if he wasn't let our first, he would have pushed himself out! :) I started to bawl and Travis runs down the hallway and tackles me and we hug for a eternity! I am going to be a mommy! Yay!

The whole day was a complete high. I didn't want to work, or do anything but lay with my husband and look at pregnant on the screen... :)

I did, however, have my first scare last night. Yep, unfortunately the party didn't last long. I started spotting bright red yesterday. Just once and then it went away. I spotted again today, and I have already contacted my doctor and I will begin to take my meds tonight. I am on Progesterone and baby aspirin. I have heard wonderful things about this combo so I hope it means good things for me. I just think its hilarious that my body needed to remind me how hard this is for us. I couldn't get just one happy day out of it...my damn dysfunctional body had to screw it up...(sorry vent!)

Well, I am a big ball of nerves and cringe every time I go to the bathroom, but I am so super excited. It still doesn't feel real! I have my first appt on Thursday at 4w2d and even though it is really early I will get to ask all the questions I need to ask. Positive prayers and thoughts will be so very much appreciated! Thanks for the comments so far! :)